Menopause

Oh boy. I got my lupron shot last week aka the-shot-that-makes-you-go-into-an-induced-menopause-and-crazy-person-shot. I got a nasty cold this week too. My body is fighting a cold, transitioning its 26 yr old self to a much older version and I have had HUGE amounts of stress with my school stuff the last few days. Not to mention I have been working on a wedding announcement for a cute girl in my ward and it hasn't been a smooth process. Thursday I wanted to go to the airport with Andrew to pick up a dog for his boss and spend a little time with him since I hadn't for most of the week. A situation arose that I thought wouldn't allow me to go. Andrew in a hurry tried not to be upset said he was leaving and headed for the car without a kiss or anything. I buckled. I cried and vented and cried, and let all the emotions out Andrew came back in and gave me a hug and let me cry while he held me close. (I love him) I made a phone call and went with him anyway. We held hands the whole way, it helped. Friday was still an emotional day, but again Andrew gave me good advice reminding me that my life was in the Lord's hands. (Oh yeah..) That made me feel much better.

Today I cleaned my fridge, my microwave, my bedroom, re-organized my closet, cleaned my family room...and I am in much better spirits.

The point...I love my Andrew, I love my Heavenly Father for giving me Andrew and I love my Heavenly Father for helping me through this menopause/infertility challenge.

Ta Da!

Before
After

It is actually pretty cheap to rent sanders, so wait for the AFTER AFTER pictures!! Woot Woot!

Surgery and Such

The skinny on the surgery. Everything in the operation went really well they were able to see what they needed to and I handled the anesthesia pretty well and we went home pretty quickly after the nurse gave the okay. Pain has been pretty minimal and I have felt that recovery has gone really well.

We found that I had a cyst on one of my ovaries that was about twice the size of the ovary that they popped and cleaned out. I also have level 4 endometriosis which is the highest level. The injected a blue dye into my uterus to see if they could get any flow through the fallopian tubes. Even after they cleaned me out, they were not able to get them open. The doctor suggested putting us on a Lupron shot for 6 months which will put me into an induced menopause and help the endometriosis. There is a chance that this will enable us to get pregnant after the 6 months, but they are still low chances. Our best chances of having kids on our own is In-Vitro.

We are looking into all of our options including adoption and in-vitro and trying to bypass the lupron shot especially since they are $10,000 a shot before insurance...yikes.

Overall we are in good spirits despite the news, hopefully we will come to some decisions here quickly as to what actions we want to take. Andrew really wants to try in-vitro, but we will need help with the funding for that. Foster care is our most affordable option, but we are considering adoption as well as soon as we can get those finances taken as well.
Other news this week comes with the dogs. Poor Saige must have had some trouble with her pregnancy because Andrew found her dead in the garage Friday morning. :( very very sad. She was bursting at the seams ready to pop any day. By the time we found her there was nothing we could do to save the puppies. Andrew was pretty upset about it. She was such a sweet dog, she will be missed.

I think to help make us feel better Andrew let Rouger (sp?) our newest puppy into the house. He jumped right up and nuzzled his way up to my pillow and nearly took over. That is the picture Andrew captured above. It helped, he was giving me hugs.

I just want to say Thank You to everyone. We have felt such a wonderful amount of support and it really makes a big difference to us. (I'm getting teary thinking about it) We have felt your prayers and I'm certain they are what has given me the strength to accept our fate and face our challenges. Even just the simple comments through texts or facebook or phone calls, they are huge and have meant a lot, so again, thanks.

RESOLUTION TIME

New Years Resolution
1. Have....I mean GET... a baby
2. Graduate...again
3. Go see Becky
4. Finish my quilt
5. Learn a new song on the piano
6. Be a good friend
7. Read the entire New Testament
8. Study Spanish
9. Finish my 2-year supply of food storage
10. Rebuild my 3 month supply.